Out on the river the past two Sundays. Feeling the roll and flow beneath me in the boat, breathing in the pristine blue sky. The heat -driven scent of water and mud. Burbling and tickling sounds of the flowing water’s riffles and eddies. Feeling the silky water, cool and soothing. Staring in awe at the mountains, the bosque, the new leaves, lime green on the trees and bushes, the birds and intense light reflected off the water. Aliveness. The exuberance of IT ALL.
Have you ever felt that whatever it is you’re doing that you’re somehow watching yourself? A discomfort in this, a disconnect? Minor sometimes, but you’re aware of it, right? There is the sense of an observer that you’d like to dissolve so you can have the pure, right-now experience as its actually happening. Some part of the psyche seems to be always watching. Do you feel like you’re a split-second behind the experience, getting a filtered sense of it?
Tom Wolfe, in his book The Electric Kool-Aid Acid Test wrote about the Merry Pranksters attempt at dissolving that “synapse-lapse-gap”. That moment when the observer interprets the experience then “reports” it to “you”. They tried to eliminate this by taking copious amounts LSD so the nano-second of mental processing of an experience might disappear completely, and immediate no-gap, spontaneous consciousness results. (They felt, in the end, that they were less than successful.)
When we are observing ourselves, I say, it’s because we’re doing, rather than being. A common state of ignorance. This discursive mind separates everything mercilessly. Mind constantly proceeding to a conclusion rather than resting in intuitive cognizance. When mind arises as such we are engaged in doing rather than being. Doing in this case, is preconditioned acting by the observer.
Being, is drifting and dreaming, flowing and floating, effortless. No aversion or attraction, no “self-making” stories being told. Being arises unnoticed, naturally and unselfconscious, because, no-you is there to notice it. The observer has disappeared. A moment, just then, and not noticed until after it passes. Then we deeply, viscerally recall the blues and greens, the sound of water rolling, the sky and wind, the sound of trees. The Being of IT ALL. Thusness, tathātā, free of conceptual encumbrances. Relax now.
Thusness is Prajna Paramita, the transcendant nature of things as they actually are, the wisdom-law of Being-ness. Have you seen it? Have you felt it? It cannot be approached, it must approach of itself. Be still.
Zazen and the experiencing of the living dharma are opportunities so very rare and precious because they realize Prajna Pramita in our living lives.
Actually living, actually being.
SCHEDULE APRIL 16- APRIL 22
MONDAY, 6:30AM, ZAZEN AT TEA HOUSE, DAVID KEKANSAN OPENING
MONDAY, 7PM, DREAM KOAN AT THE TEA HOUSE OR ZOOM
Drag your body to the Zendo, or Join Zoom Meeting
TUESDAY, 6:30AM, ZAZEN AT THE TEA HOUSE OR ZOOM, WITH ZENHO. https://us02web.zoom.us/j/86265616603?pwd=WHZEQWNDQnZPS1VicDl6VVlEdmxFZz09
TUESDAY, 6:30PM, Tokudo Meeting, at the Tea House OR ZOOM. https://us02web.zoom.us/j/89738637937?pwd=S3ViQ2dubGpoQzBURktqUjlaeExCdz09
WEDNESDAY, 6:30AM: ZAZEN AT THE TEA HOUSE OR ZOOM WITH ZENHO
Join Zoom Meeting
THURSDAY, 6:30AM: ZAZEN AT THE TEA HOUSE, ANDY OPENING (Issan out of town Thursday-Tuesday)
FRIDAY, 6:30AM: ZAZEN & SERVICE WITH ZENHO AT THE TEAHOUSE DOKUSAN WITH ZENHO SENSEI
Happy Earth Day on Saturday April 22nd!
Deep peace & great love,
Issan & Zenho
Here is our poetic gift from Noah this week:
Pulling down spirals of
into my own relationship with
‘go to sleep’
that whisper of revelation
that beckon and beckon
to the non-conceptual
I know is